Again

[thesystemdied]

I found myself thinking about halo, my ex. It's been a good long while now since he just ghosted me for no reason. I don't think about them much anymore. I'm not sure if that's linked to the fact that I haven't been here very often or if I'm just trying to block it out. I can hardly remember when it all happened. All I know, all I can really remember, is waking up one day to find myself blocked by them. Nothing more than that. No message of any kind, no signs, no anything, he was just gone. I was distraught, who wouldn't be? I know we weren't dating for very long but I loved him, every bit of him. I did things, told him things I had never done or told anyone else before. For the first time ever I felt like someone, he made me feel like I was actually some person. I was talking, doing things, existing, and it was all because of him and then he was just gone for no reason. I remember we used to stalk his tiktok quite a lot, see what he was posting, just check. But then the account just disappeared and I haven't seen anything from him since.
I still don't understand it. I don’t know what happened. I don’t know what I did wrong.

Of course I still miss him, he was everything to me. Some part of me is still hoping he’ll come back, that there's a small chance he might. I doubt it's true though. I just wish I knew what I had done wrong.

Simon