All in my turn

[thesystemdied]

I know it's dangerous, not just for me but for everyone in the system. I feel bad, kinda. I don't know. It's not much I'm doing anyway. It's just for fun and those benefits. I'll feel less alone and less like a burden this way. I’ll be safe about it, I'm pretty smart and older so I know what I'm doing. Still, I know it's dumb.

I feel bad for Ulysses. This isn't his game and as much as i know he's missed it i know he doesn't want to play anymore. I’m gonna end up fucking somthing up with this and then I’ll really feel bad. I'm putting us all in harm's way, I hate that I know this. I'm too old to be oblivious to what's happening but I really wish I wasn't. I'd feel less guilty that way.

I’ll regret this when it’s over, I know that much, but right now It feels like all I have and I’ll take what I can get.
Besides, Antinous was right, this is really all I'm good for anyway


| Dionysus