Alone

[thesystemdied]

I usually always feel pretty lonely when I front, I know most of us do because we never actually have anyone to talk to. The host already doesn't have many friends as is. hardly talks to anyone and anyone hardly talks to them. so you know it can be even harder for any of us who already hardly know these people to start a conversation. I don't fully hate it, I'm not good at talking to people anyway but sometimes I do wish I could do something that wasn't just laying in our bed.

And another thing, I hate seeing ourselves. I hate not seeing me when I look into any reflective surface. I hate not seeing my hair, my face, my hands, my anything. I hate that feeling of feeling like me but not looking like me. it drives me crazy.

I hate being here. I never know what to do.

- Никита