Okay!

It's kind of weird how I was pulled to front for it, thaaaat is not my field! I don't handle things like that! but for some reason it was me who was pulled up and stressed about it! It’s not my thing, and I really mean it not my thing. I didn't do anything for it because I kinda got there at the last second but it still had me stressed about it. I don't know if it was because of that one time I dealt with something similar and it just pushed that instinct in me or what. I’m not really sure how to feel about it, I really don’t deal well with things like that. Hell, even that first time it was quite triggering but I was worried about leaving so I didn't. Dion tried to tell me that I could if I wanted to, that it was neither my job nor my responsibility and I knew that but how could I be expected to just disappear because I was a little uncomfortable? And besides, I got a friend out of it in the end but I just hope this doesn't become a pattern.

` Hypnos

#2

I miss my brother, Thanatos. I usually always get a little emotional in front because of how much i miss him but how could i not. He was so important to me, I loved him more than I loved myself and then one day he's just gone without a trace and I'm trapped here without him. Some dumb part of me still hopes that one day I’ll find him, that maybe I’ll meet someone and somehow it’ll be Thanatos we can love each other again. It has to be possible, right? At least a little? If Hermes AND Calypso were able to do it, to find their love out here again surely I'm able to too, right? I want to ask, to search, the way herm did, but I'm scared. I always hear how it’s wrong or how it's dangerous to have this image of someone in source and then put it on another person but I just hope. I hope i can find him again, somehow.

I miss my Lover, I miss him so much.
Thanatos, one day.

` Hypnos